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[unpocoloco]

[There's no recording but the original default, a robotic voice suggesting to leave a message.]

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a little after the Kaworu conversation because I do what I want

[awooligan]

seriously what the fuck is up with the creepy dude

[you good, bro.........]

hell yeah hell yeah

[unpocoloco]

[He wasn't expecting the text. For a split second he is even more unsettled because it feels as though his mind's been read, because his mind is currently turning that conversation over and over in his head with the added sense that he desperately wants to smoke.

But, the split-second is short as he registers that it's Cliff and he knows Cliff saw that whole thing.]

Honestly? I don't mean to say this in an insulting way, but he's probably not human. Red eyes, white hair, talks like he's never talked to a real person before in his life. It's not a definite thing, but with those tells, he's a strong contender for one of those alien or other types.

[That's just how it be in this bitch of a multiverse.]

I probably should've expected being that honest would land me with questions I don't like much. Or answers I don't like much.

[awooligan]

maybe
I've known some guys that weren't human and one of them would creep me out with what he said
but he wasn't going around doing that just because
he had other reasons for wanting to

['get under my skin', he almost sends before furiously backspacing and rewriting. Fuck that phrasing in particular on this subject.]

get to know me
not good ones

I don't know
maybe he's fine but he's still creepy as fuck and I don't think not being human is that great of an excuse

[Cliff manages... But then, he's half-human, or...something. Raised by them, at the very least. Human enough to not be the same as this guy, even if both Kaworu and himself had similarities to Raven.]

you know what I meant when I said I wasn't happy with the changes, right?

[unpocoloco]

It really depends on the non-human, I find. Some are just as normal as anyone. Some take more time and practice before they figure it out. Some can manage but just don't care. I'm trying to give the benefit of the doubt that this kid isn't some secret demon. The bad kind.

I'm sorry you had to deal with that.

[He's a little slower to respond to the last question. Those doubts nag.]


I know you wouldn't want me dead. Destroyed. Insane. There's not a good way to put it given everything. But I know you and Nekane wouldn't want that. You're both better than that. I won't insult either of you by suggesting otherwise.


But I don't know. Nekane would say that what-ifs are stupid, but maybe I could've done something differently. It's not as though being like this really protected me or them all that much. I could find a way to forget everything, I'd at least be as I was in the land of the dead. But Nekane would be furious and I think I'm too scared of repeating mistakes to do something like that again.

[awooligan]

it's fine

[He might have continued with his rote response if he were speaking, but this is already more texting than he was used to doing, and it really wasn't a big enough deal, especially with Héctor, to say anymore more on it.]

so what if what-ifs are stupid? they go the other way too
you don't know that you didn't protect anyone by changing
or if there was anything you could even do to not change
forgetting things like for real forgetting hasn't done anyone any good in my experience

[unpocoloco]

[Ah. At last. He's picking up on it. The it's fine being code for it wasn't fine even a little bit.]

No. You're right. It didn't help me before either. I think forgetting even for a little bit made things worse.

Everyone I cared about got hurt. I tore myself apart and they all suffered anyway. I think the only thing I succeeded in was making myself a bad person. But I don't know what else I could have done. The smart things to do in the long run always feel like the worst things to do in the moment.

[He could have left Dodger at that bar. He could've left him drunk, miserable, and vulnerable and let the demons do what they willed, never seeing him again. But he couldn't. Not after what happened to him. It would've made him scum. But it would have spared them all so much.]

Are you alright?
You said he reminded you of some bad people.

[awooligan]

sometimes you can't stop people from getting hurt even if you try for a long time
just stick around after I guess

nah I didn't think about it until after the not human thing
just thought he was really annoying and freaky
not as pushy as the other guy so at least he's got that going for him

[unpocoloco]

Well, I can do that for one person at least.
You've got some wisdom in that head of yours.


Sorry about putting the thought in your head, in that case.
For what it's worth, demons aside, most of the non-humans I've met are kind people.
Hell also aside.

early november

[daikonrose]

[ Not long after the usual deposit hits accounts, an extra bit of dora to the tune of around 50 bucks hits Héctor's account. Where did that come from?? Gosh, it doesn't say. Oh well! ]

dec 1 don't look at me

[awooligan]

yo old dude

[Seeing as he just got older the day before, and all.]

Wanna test how much replicator shit can be coated in sugar?
I got the Good Stuff

[unpocoloco]

such disrespect for your ancestors.
Picture me tutting and shaking that cane.

But yes, I'd be willing to test that out.
Where are we doing this?

[awooligan]

Not MY ancestor, just my girlfriend's
Besides you should just be happy you have a cane to tut

My place is easiest since we can make it spit out as much piloncillo as we want
But no masaca yet

[unpocoloco]

Spiritual ancestor. Ancestor in law. Semantics.
Whoever said I wasn't happy?

Alright, I'll head on over.
Let me know if I need to bring anything.
I won't be long otherwise.

[awooligan]

[Ancestor in law.........he's gonna Die]

You do know we aren't married right
I've been here as long as we've been dating now

[Which is fucked up and he has a fight to pick with someone out there.]

Maybe an extra pan?
Your replicator is shit too right so there's nothing I don't have?

[unpocoloco]

Well, I'm not sure what other word there is to use.
You do have designs for her hand someday, don't you?

[RIP Cliff.]

The point is, we have a connection through Coco.

And yes, I suppose it's lackluster, though that feels a little strange to say about a machine that replicates food.
I will grab the pan and see you shortly.

[awooligan]

That's not a real thing people say

[no he's not avoiding the question what are you talking about]

Right? Thing is weird
But it's like if they can make them sick then why not JUST make awesome ones
Plus I'm gonna undercook this meat and die, robot overlords

[unpocoloco]

It obviously is. I just said it.

[Mmhmm.]

You're talking to the guy who's amazed by microwaves and washing machines.
This is entirely beyond me.
Maybe it's beyond them.

You're better off overdoing it if you're worried.
Unless you can handle it as a wolf.
Does it make a difference what form you're in?

idk sometime during December log

[awooligan]

Hey you'll buy me alcohol right
You basically already promised

[unpocoloco]

Well.
I've already been to Hell and I did promise.
So, yes, okay, I'll go and ask for some.
But I'm supervising, which I also promised.
Where am I meeting you and what do you want?
Also, if you boast about this to anyone I will think of some very serious consequence, mark my words.

[He can't believe he's doing this.]

[awooligan]

[He was pleased for like two whole seconds, then he ruined it.]

I don't need a babysitter
I wasn't even going to be drinking alone but you're being all embarrassing about it
If you stay you have to be cool and not like a dad

[unpocoloco]

I didn't ask if you wanted one.
I said if I was getting you drinks I'd be sitting in and making sure things were okay.
That part was never in negotiation.
You also didn't say you wanted me to get stuff for other people.
Getting drinks for you goes against being a dad automatically, I have to cover the rest of the bases.

[awooligan]

Oh my god are you going to get me and my friend drinks and be cool or not

[unpocoloco]

I'm getting you drinks.
I promise nothing else, but I'm heading out the door.
Who's the friend?

[awooligan]

[Héctor! You suck!!]

Farrah
She's the girl that taught you about boomers
We're just going to find some other way to get some so you might as well bring enough for her too

[unpocoloco]

[Deal with it!!!]

So, what I'm hearing is, you're both going to drink together without my help whether I like it or not and that's the reason you want my help?
Not feeling a whole lot of grattitude at the moment.