I remember that... It was a special treat for breakfast when we could manage it. She wanted to help stir the molinillo, but she'd make a terrible mess.
I mean, I ended up seeing her a few months later you guys let me visit for día del amor y la amistad
[It's less embarrassing to put it that way, even if it makes it all the easier for Héctor to know just what he means. Rolling right along into stuff that's even worse than getting dunked on for being in love as he's sure to be --]
but I was over in France and didn't know when I'd get to go home let alone visit México and then the world was maybe going to end before April I was going from living with her to nothing but video calls and texts from a completely different timezone
I was too chicken to ask her if she liked me but she was my best friend I'd miss her even if I knew I was going to see her in a month or a week
[Whatever dunking on Cliff was expecting, it doesn't come. His heart sinks too low, caught up in understanding, longing, and worry all at once.]
So you wanted to make your possible last moments good. A memory to hang on to, just in case.
That sounds like a very nice thing. I'd have wanted to do the same.
[He did do the same, but with someone else. He sat outside and sang songs to Nekane, made smores with them over a burning fire and promises he could never keep. He made sure they were the last one he saw before he said the thing he thought would make them hate him.]
I hope the world didn't end for you. But, if it did, please don't tell me. I can't bear thinking of that happening to her.
Next to me, almost everyone's lucky as shit. I am definitively unlucky. I bring bad luck to everyone I know. Possibly cursed. Certainly damned. The point is moot. It still sucks all around so if you want to talk about it, you can. I've spent a century pissing off everyone else about it, so I might as well lament with someone who gets it.
okay but talking about her to you is still super weird? you have to see how weird that is "wow my perfect girlfriend is so nice and pretty, I miss hearing her laugh. your turn, guy that's the dad of a different version of her!" gross even if you weren't sort of her dad that'd be gross
Have you never heard of mourning in your life? What do you think people do? Obviously don't talk to me about how much you want to make out with her or whatever but you didn't even do that. My daughter is nice, I miss her laugh, and she's the sweetest most adorable child in every world. What's gross about that?
I know that! Didn't I say that before? My point is that when two people miss someone they talk about that person. It's not whatever it is you think would make this gross.
yeah so the only people that's happened with before are my dad who I also hate and Oscar who ditched without warning and then again after promising he wouldn't talking about them with people wasn't exactly high on my list unless I wanted to upset my mom or have Sylvia worried out of her mind
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I remember that...
It was a special treat for breakfast when we could manage it.
She wanted to help stir the molinillo, but she'd make a terrible mess.
Were you not going to see her again?
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I mean, I ended up seeing her a few months later
you guys let me visit for día del amor y la amistad
[It's less embarrassing to put it that way, even if it makes it all the easier for Héctor to know just what he means. Rolling right along into stuff that's even worse than getting dunked on for being in love as he's sure to be --]
but I was over in France and didn't know when I'd get to go home let alone visit México
and then the world was maybe going to end before April
I was going from living with her to nothing but video calls and texts from a completely different timezone
I was too chicken to ask her if she liked me but she was my best friend
I'd miss her even if I knew I was going to see her in a month or a week
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So you wanted to make your possible last moments good.
A memory to hang on to, just in case.
That sounds like a very nice thing.
I'd have wanted to do the same.
[He did do the same, but with someone else. He sat outside and sang songs to Nekane, made smores with them over a burning fire and promises he could never keep. He made sure they were the last one he saw before he said the thing he thought would make them hate him.]
I hope the world didn't end for you.
But, if it did,
please don't tell me.
I can't bear thinking of that happening to her.
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you're in luck
the sun didn't get eaten
summer is saved
[But yeah, that sure was a lot he admitted and it was kind of exhausting. Time to remember how much he misses Coco again...!]
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actually, no, forget that
Thank YOU.
In any case, I'm sorry you have to deal with this right now.
Missing her
I know it
I know it feels awful.
I really hope things change for you soon.
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Who else is going to get that it's not just any person?
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next to you I'm lucky as shit!
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I am definitively unlucky.
I bring bad luck to everyone I know.
Possibly cursed.
Certainly damned.
The point is moot.
It still sucks all around so if you want to talk about it, you can.
I've spent a century pissing off everyone else about it, so I might as well lament with someone who gets it.
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Consider me officially here for you on the topic.
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"wow my perfect girlfriend is so nice and pretty, I miss hearing her laugh. your turn, guy that's the dad of a different version of her!"
gross
even if you weren't sort of her dad that'd be gross
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What do you think people do?
Obviously don't talk to me about how much you want to make out with her or whatever but you didn't even do that.
My daughter is nice, I miss her laugh, and she's the sweetest most adorable child in every world.
What's gross about that?
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dude leave me alone
and I'm not calling this anything like mourning when for me she's perfectly safe and happy
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My point is that when two people miss someone they talk about that person.
It's not
whatever it is you think would make this gross.
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talking about them with people wasn't exactly high on my list unless I wanted to upset my mom or have Sylvia worried out of her mind
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I have personal experience to say that this is a thing.
You can talk to me and it is not weird.
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okay well great I'll keep it in mind for next time