Yeah.... Hard to say any of us are well in Hell, huh?
Uh, well, now a pair of mine are stuck. I was wondering if you used any water-proofing oils. Or had a way to keep them from not getting wet. I hate when they're wet.
I think there's always a bit of complicated even there isn't anything bad.
Which... I have to ask... how did they get stuck? I thought you could just magic them in or out whenever?
But, ah, let's see what I can remember. Most of it is what Nekane taught me, to be honest... I'm not a big fan of oils, I find they'd stick in too much whenever I'd try to fly, make it heavy, or it'd get all over the fabrics, but if I did use any, it'd probably be just on the down, close to the skin, you know? Like a beard oil. You should be able to towel it or get someone's help with that, given you'll know your own feathers better and won't push them in the wrong directions and such unlike a regular bird... Ay... it just occurred to me how weird it is to know all that...
Anyway, sadly, it's going to take a while to dry either way unless you can keep your wings out of the water. Maybe stick to baths...
Ah. Ha. Yeah... I kind of did? I guess you missed it. I was a skeleton for a little while! And by a while I mean nearly a century. Long story, but yes, I'm back. And in... the flesh to boot. [Couldn't sound less enthusiastic about that if he tried. Oops.]
Wait.
You have a halo too? Kid... you think maybe you're redeeming? Have you checked your list recently?
[He snorts.] Yes and I don't think eyes on me is going to help. [Or else he might have gotten in less trouble.]
I think I'm supposed to scold you for adding something bad to your list when you were clearly making progress... but I can't say I haven't done the same and Hell does enough chewing out for anyone.
But, Dios, two. That's really close. Do you... want to go?
[He laughs over the call.] I'll take the welcome. I'm glad to be back, in a strange way.
And perhaps that scolding does grant you leeway but...
[He sighs softly. Fondly. Setsuna can't see him shaking his head but it's just as clear in his voice.] You don't need to save everyone, Setsuna. First of all, because we all have an out whenever we'd like, to wherever we need to go, so long as we can do it, we ask, and we trust it to work. It does work. Secondly, because people look out for each other down here. I'm sure you've seen that and you must know we'll all do it again. And finally, because it's not your job-- or anyone's. And you shouldn't make it so. That's too big a task, especially when you've already got another world on your plate. If the only thing keeping you here is duty, then you're doing a disservice to yourself. But... the same is true for going back. Is that the only reason to stay or go?
I'm making it sound simple because you need that when your skull is making it all too complicated. I know passions well. But passions can be blinding when you've got to make a choice. It is not easy. But, it is important to consider... what can you live with? what can the people you love live with? And can you live with that?
Home is... fine. Home is lovely. But Home is complicated.
[Another sigh drifts over the phone.] I never made it back to my family. I went on to my afterlife from the moment of my death. It was mixed. Some of it was really hard, some of it was wonderful. I'd say the world itself was very nice. I just made a lot of new mistakes trying to fix old ones. It was my ninety-sixth year there before I reached my final death. I didn't expect anything more until I woke up here. Again. It didn't end how I hoped... but when does it ever? Ah... [He swallows hard.] What else...
Right, I came back a skeleton, how I'd been in the land of the dead... Got married to Nekane, that was nice... and ah, the old body's back after Lucifer's last wide-spread healing effort. That's probably the short of it all. The point is, I've got another chance. I'm grateful for that.
[There's an abashed laugh, because he knows Héctor's right about that, too.] I...I don't think I can live with walking away from this. Not ever. I know that much.
[His tone dampens a little.] Oh.... I'm sorry about your family, Héctor.
You and Nekane happy, then? I know not everyone got married by choice. But some of the mashups were welcomed. And, if you're happy for a second chance, even here, then I'm happy for you, too.
It's... well, it's not alright, it's kind of terrible but. But there's nothing I can do. Not now.
But Nekane and I are happy, yes. The marriage was sort of an accident, but, they'd more or less proposed to me before that and I have to admit, as much I did and still my love my wi- er- Imelda, I'd fallen in love with Nekane too well before I'd redeemed out of here. Thank you.
To be honest, everything I knew from before might already be gone. I've known that for a while. I just still don't know for sure. I guess I have to pay one way or another.
Yeah. I guess you can't really do anything about there from here.
I know that feeling. I'll always love Sara. I can't go a day without thinking of her, but I love Teddy, and Billy, too. I never thought it was possible, but...there it is.
As long as you're happy with Nekane, I think that's all that matters.
I know what you mean. I didn't understand the whole... having space in the heart for others. It's kind of crazy. But as you say, there it is.
Let me say from experience then, something for you to mull over. Time is funny. You might find that the world is just as you left it, exactly the moment you left. But you don't just have to go home. I was offered before I left, the chance to bring someone with me. I don't doubt that, if you asked, Lucifer could have you sent somewhere else. To the world of this Billy or Teddy, for example. In either case, wherever you go, if you go at all, make sure you ask to remember.
It is crazy. Hearts can be bigger than I thought. I thought for a long time there was only room for Sara. But...here we are.
[He's quiet for a bit, as Héctor has really given him a lot to consider.]
Teddy offered, already. He said if my world was already gone, then...I could go with him.
So thank you. I'll think about that. I can't just leave my world as it was, but there is a chance God already destroyed everyone without me. The fact it's possible, helps.
Mm... Well... I hope your world is not gone, if only for your peace of mind.
You've got two near-impossible tasks ahead and you can only begin to help one of them. I wish you luck, whichever one you choose. Either way, if you do get to stick it to Our Heavenly Father, give him regards as well. I'm sure you know what sort of regard that is.
Me, too. But I know I need to be prepared for that reality, as well. So I'm trying to be strong about it.
[Instead of whiny and crying about it, like he had been for a while.]
Heh. You know. I hadn't even thought of that before, but if I wanna face this asshole God here, too, I might have to suck it up and get redeemed.
I'm gonna see what else I can do here first, but if it comes to that, we'll see if I can get people free that way. And believe me, I'll regards for all of us.
...yeah. I might not be able to handle that. That's why I still hope. Maybe at the end of all of this, I'll find out my fears and worries were for nothing.
[There's a soft laugh.] Okay, Héctor. You're not the only one. I'm not gonna make anyone leave. Just maybe make things a little less horrifying, if I can.
Until then, I'll just try to be the best friend to all of you I can be. Make things suck just a little less.
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But, uh...remember when you had wings?
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... It's been... a while for that, but yeah, I remember. What about it?
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Uh, well, now a pair of mine are stuck. I was wondering if you used any water-proofing oils. Or had a way to keep them from not getting wet. I hate when they're wet.
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Which... I have to ask... how did they get stuck? I thought you could just magic them in or out whenever?
But, ah, let's see what I can remember. Most of it is what Nekane taught me, to be honest... I'm not a big fan of oils, I find they'd stick in too much whenever I'd try to fly, make it heavy, or it'd get all over the fabrics, but if I did use any, it'd probably be just on the down, close to the skin, you know? Like a beard oil. You should be able to towel it or get someone's help with that, given you'll know your own feathers better and won't push them in the wrong directions and such unlike a regular bird... Ay... it just occurred to me how weird it is to know all that...
Anyway, sadly, it's going to take a while to dry either way unless you can keep your wings out of the water. Maybe stick to baths...
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Uh, not sure. Just one day they didn't wanna go back in. I guess it's better than the stupid halo I got saddled with at one point.
I'm gonna have to get help, but thanks. These are good tips. I dunno anything about beard oils. And, well, the things we learn in Hell, right?
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Wait.
You have a halo too? Kid... you think maybe you're redeeming? Have you checked your list recently?
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[That's a lot to take in. Setsuna really did miss a lot.] I need to keep in better touch with you.
I got rid of the halo! I did something bad and got some sins added to my list and it vanished.
But, uh. ...yeah, I'm down to two now.
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I think I'm supposed to scold you for adding something bad to your list when you were clearly making progress... but I can't say I haven't done the same and Hell does enough chewing out for anyone.
But, Dios, two. That's really close. Do you... want to go?
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Heh.... Well, does it help to know I got scolded plenty?
[All of his cheer falters.] No. I mean, I do. I have a world to save. But, I need to help everyone here, first.
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And perhaps that scolding does grant you leeway but...
[He sighs softly. Fondly. Setsuna can't see him shaking his head but it's just as clear in his voice.] You don't need to save everyone, Setsuna. First of all, because we all have an out whenever we'd like, to wherever we need to go, so long as we can do it, we ask, and we trust it to work. It does work. Secondly, because people look out for each other down here. I'm sure you've seen that and you must know we'll all do it again. And finally, because it's not your job-- or anyone's. And you shouldn't make it so. That's too big a task, especially when you've already got another world on your plate. If the only thing keeping you here is duty, then you're doing a disservice to yourself. But... the same is true for going back. Is that the only reason to stay or go?
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[Sesuna sighs.] I know you're right. But you make it sound so simple. It's just duty, not to me. It's passion and desire. A need to help.
And really, I don't think I can look away from this if I want to. I love my girlfriend, and she's definitely part of why I need to go back.
But...I love the people I've met here, too.
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Home is... fine. Home is lovely. But Home is complicated.
[Another sigh drifts over the phone.] I never made it back to my family. I went on to my afterlife from the moment of my death. It was mixed. Some of it was really hard, some of it was wonderful. I'd say the world itself was very nice. I just made a lot of new mistakes trying to fix old ones. It was my ninety-sixth year there before I reached my final death. I didn't expect anything more until I woke up here. Again. It didn't end how I hoped... but when does it ever? Ah... [He swallows hard.] What else...
Right, I came back a skeleton, how I'd been in the land of the dead... Got married to Nekane, that was nice... and ah, the old body's back after Lucifer's last wide-spread healing effort. That's probably the short of it all. The point is, I've got another chance. I'm grateful for that.
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[His tone dampens a little.] Oh.... I'm sorry about your family, Héctor.
You and Nekane happy, then? I know not everyone got married by choice. But some of the mashups were welcomed. And, if you're happy for a second chance, even here, then I'm happy for you, too.
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It's... well, it's not alright, it's kind of terrible but. But there's nothing I can do. Not now.
But Nekane and I are happy, yes. The marriage was sort of an accident, but, they'd more or less proposed to me before that and I have to admit, as much I did and still my love my wi- er- Imelda, I'd fallen in love with Nekane too well before I'd redeemed out of here. Thank you.
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Yeah. I guess you can't really do anything about there from here.
I know that feeling. I'll always love Sara. I can't go a day without thinking of her, but I love Teddy, and Billy, too. I never thought it was possible, but...there it is.
As long as you're happy with Nekane, I think that's all that matters.
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Let me say from experience then, something for you to mull over. Time is funny. You might find that the world is just as you left it, exactly the moment you left. But you don't just have to go home. I was offered before I left, the chance to bring someone with me. I don't doubt that, if you asked, Lucifer could have you sent somewhere else. To the world of this Billy or Teddy, for example. In either case, wherever you go, if you go at all, make sure you ask to remember.
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[He's quiet for a bit, as Héctor has really given him a lot to consider.]
Teddy offered, already. He said if my world was already gone, then...I could go with him.
So thank you. I'll think about that. I can't just leave my world as it was, but there is a chance God already destroyed everyone without me. The fact it's possible, helps.
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You've got two near-impossible tasks ahead and you can only begin to help one of them. I wish you luck, whichever one you choose. Either way, if you do get to stick it to Our Heavenly Father, give him regards as well. I'm sure you know what sort of regard that is.
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[Instead of whiny and crying about it, like he had been for a while.]
Heh. You know. I hadn't even thought of that before, but if I wanna face this asshole God here, too, I might have to suck it up and get redeemed.
I'm gonna see what else I can do here first, but if it comes to that, we'll see if I can get people free that way. And believe me, I'll regards for all of us.
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In any case, don't worry about getting me out. I'm fine right where I am.
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[There's a soft laugh.] Okay, Héctor. You're not the only one. I'm not gonna make anyone leave. Just maybe make things a little less horrifying, if I can.
Until then, I'll just try to be the best friend to all of you I can be. Make things suck just a little less.